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Thursday, May 29, 2008

1:21 PM

why does things always comes at the wrong time? they came tgt making it worse. i have to make e decision by tonight. having a friendly match later on, how am i going to play with this mood? shall take some time to cool down, if not i am going to be a benchwarmer later. -gone-

Sunday, May 25, 2008

10:56 PM

** encouraged me to go wild and crazy, thinking that it will make my life happier, and make ppl arnd me happier too. These few days i tried to become more hyper, which means going 'wild and crazy'. But the feeling is just not right; i felt guilty. It is like misbehaving. Self discipline. I decided to remain as who I am. I'm sorry if you are dissapointed. Accept me if you can, or else forget it.

I just want to be who I am.

Saturday, May 24, 2008

11:49 PM

i am tired but i am here to share my joy with everyone!

Home United is CHAMPION for WBL 2008!!! xD

Adding on, home united guys got champion for NBL too! Cheers to Home United players and cheers to xlj! =) I am so happy today! Thanks! Must play hard for youth cup also! Champion belongs to Home United! =) Jiayou!

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

8:01 PM

i know that you are trying to change and i do see the change in you. but are u changing in a correct way? i tried hard to accept you but i just cant. forgive me. i just cant accept you.

3 more days to WBL finals.

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

4:37 PM

went jogging with zen. we jogged from my house to yck mrt station and back to mac. almost knocked out during trg today. my butt cramped during trg today. butt is too big. haha. i tried to play as a center during trg today. haha. i still prefer to play as forward and probably guard though center is not as bad as i thought. youth cup is coming soon!
WBL finals is this coming sat. so excited! haha. 4 more days! i am counting down.

omg! i am blogging during lecture. the lecture is just too boring la! hungry hungry. xD

i am so stressed up! BUT! if she can do it, i am sure i can. jiayou! =)

Sunday, May 18, 2008

11:11 PM

i miss shawn,
i miss ah gong,
i miss ah yi and
i miss you.

Life is getting so stress up for me. Think positively and smile more.

Thursday, May 15, 2008

4:50 PM

hai, getting even more busy and stress up nowadays. getting not enough sleep and missing more trgs nowadays. i am guilty. youth cup is coming but yet i m missing trg. hai.

thanks to all those who wished me happy birthday and those who celebrated my bday with me. happy. =) i m surprised when i saw rose in the morning with two cakes (choc and durian) and one box of durian mochi. thanks girl! =)

i m glad that she can take it. i am still feeling guilty. i m sorry.

Saturday, May 10, 2008

11:44 PM

trg was fun with candy-jie coaching us today. she is damn funny la! she is our mother. xD yan shan jie trained us on PT today. omg, she is really fit. guess what, i found that xiao feng jie is very fierce de!! she is like so cool! i had a mini conversation with xiao feng jie when i banged into her.
CF: Sorry! Sorry! (when i banged into her)
Xiaofeng jie: Number 8, what did u just said? did u just said sorry to me?
I nodded my head.
CF: Why did u apologise to me? This is what u should do, u dont have to apologise to me.
I nodded my head again. I am glad that she sounded friendly. =)

It seems like there are a lot of happenings recently. Hope it get over soon.

Thanks girls for celebrating my bday with me. You girls made the day special for me. Thanks. =) Shall post the photos up another day.

12:04 AM

Went for NP trg. So little ppl. Had a slight ankle sprain. Sian. It'll recover soon.
I dont know what will happen tmr. Hope things will turn out fine.

Thursday, May 8, 2008

11:38 PM

everyone has to learn to give in. you have already got what u wanted. cant u just give in? you gained your happiness at the loss of someone's else sadness. if i can, i will give up. i am at fault.

8:52 PM

I have so many doubts. I wondered if u lied. But for now, I shall trust you.

4:40 PM

Alright, it is time for me to get serious. Focusing too much on bballing and slacking too much on studies. I will have more time once polite and youth cup is over. Seems like i m getting headaches too frequently nowadays. Must get more sleep whenever i can.

If i can, i hope that next week never comes.

Wednesday, May 7, 2008

9:55 PM

Didnt have the time to blog ytd night. Went for the scholarship interview.

Interviewer: Why did u choose banking and financial services?
Me: Cos I am interested in money.
Interviewer: Why are you so interested in money?
Me: Because I am poor.

Stupid qns vs stupid ans.

The world is just unfair.

6 May
Won Kai Xuan by 19 points. Need improvements on passes, shooting and defence. One thing I'm happy about is that I've learnt to play at my team' own pace and not our opponent pace. I must learn how to play center position. The victory should be something for me to be happy about, but my day ended differently. Two incidents struck upon me. One making me feel dissapointed whereas the other making me feel guilty. I just dont understand.

I could get angry so easily in the past but now I can't. Anger just becomes sadness. Please make me angry.

Monday, May 5, 2008

8:59 PM

HAPPY BIRTDAY TO DORIS! =)

Warning! Dont ever drink papaya milk! The taste is really awful!! (though it can help make your breasts bigger) xD

These are my birthday wants:
1) NUM 'basketball' party tanks
2)NUM mister series party tanks
3)NUM lime green slippers
4)Le coq sportif jacket
5)Small bag like the adidas one
6)Watch

What is most important is that i hope my famly members (parents, ah ma, ah gu, ah kim, xueling, xueli, guowei, baoyi, baozuan, dezheng, caiyin and shawn i wish) and I can take a family photo tgt during mothers' day celebration. In short, I hope all of us will be present during the dinner.

Going for an interview on wed. I hate interviews!

Friendly match against kiaxuan tmr.

Sunday, May 4, 2008

10:01 PM

I would have feel inferior if I'm the past me, but now it is a totally different case. I'm still learning and feeling so proud of it.

I'm sorry,
I lied.
Feeling the guilt.

10:30 AM

Training got too tiring today bcos I slept late ytd night and balled till 10 plus. Seniors came to trg as I wished! That’s always the best part of trg when we get to play full court 5 on 5. Trying my best to defend xueling-jie. It is challenging and I like it a lot! It can really train me on defence. =) Sat trg is the best!

Hope you girls can share the pressure and stress you all face with me. Now I know where some of the problems lie. We’ll solve it tgt. We play and fight as a team. =)

Our first friendly match against kaixuan on this coming tues. Jiayou girls! We are the champion team! =)

I have been happy for these few days. =) Cheers! xD

Saturday, May 3, 2008

2:59 PM

Went amkcc to train alone. Get to know some guys from amkcc basketball club. They are playing for U18 Milo Cup. Anyway, I met a coach at amkcc. He taught me two tactics in dribbling. =) Thanls. Played till 10 plus and headed home. =)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHUJUN! =)

Friday, May 2, 2008

2:55 PM

Had so much so much of fun today at the chalet! Went to the swimming pool with coach, yh, ivy, marina and manager! It was so fun! Had a bbq night. Our seniors came in the evening. OMG! They are so fun and friendly la! I look forward to see them on every sat trg! So excited!
Xueling-jie and Ying Shi-jie never come!! I miss Ying Shi-jie speaking in chinese. xD

Hmm. The bonding 'games' are quite useful esp the part on strength and weaknesses. I know what my weakness is- not enough bonding with the team. I tried to but I am not the sociable type as what many of my friends said. Give me more time to bond. Told everyone that my motivation line is "Must play like xueling-jie. Some may find it so =.= but i really wish to play like her. Some of them like the way cheryl poon play, some of them like weibin. Who don't wish to play like your idol? =)
Had a very nice chat with coach. I felt so wrong at first but the answers and comments she gave me really made me feel at peace. Really so at ease. Thanks so much.

This chalet is so meaningful, so fun. I really enjoyed so much so much. Thanks to our coaches, manager, seniors and team mates! Looking forward to next year's chalet le! =) Cheers!

Thursday, May 1, 2008

2:28 PM

Now, i feel so different! Life with a goal is just so different! Though this is not a life-long goal, at least there is something for me to work towards for the next few years! I only told some of my friends what my goal is, some may find it hilarious but I don't mind them laughing at me. I feel so proud of my goal! =) My basketball goal still remains!! =)

Made a bet with PiPi. Be prepared to owe me a meal! HAHA! Free neal is on the way... xD

My dear girls, dont criticize others for their character. You can voice out your anger on their actions but dont blame them for their character. They don't mean to do things which would cause hatred in you. Who likes to be hated right? =) Thanks Mdm Ng for changing my character and there are a lot more for me to change. You will always be my role model. =)

If my guess is wrong, it will be so unfair. I am looking forward to knowing the result. Please dont dissapoint me. I don't know how i i wll react.