cunfang(:

Sunday, March 29, 2009

9:26 AM

i miss my secondary school life. even though i have to go to school everyday, the times are fun. i miss listening to jolene and yubing crapping. i miss the times when we always bully jolene, when i was playing with my buddy at the back of the class, when i was not paying attention. most of all, i miss the excitement to go for trg on every tues and thurs.

i can see another problem arising. well, if you happens to read this, i just want to tell u that it takes time to understand each other, to bond together. it took me a year plus and i am still trying. we are ONE.

i really dont like this feeling- the hot and cold feeling. if you understand what i meant. i love you. i love all my friends.

to all stalkers out there: i'm not emo-ing.

Monday, March 2, 2009

10:38 PM

whatever it is. life goes on. SMILES! (:

i dont know. i feel so arh. i used to be so prideful, so egoistic but now i am totally not. i know it is good that i am not egoisitic or prideful anymore but it means that there is no fighting spirit, no motivation. it seems like nothing can excite me. i feel so restless, feel like doing nothing, feel like cooping at home, feel like doing nothing.

i wonder if u know what's wrong? maybe it is the best for us to remain like this. i would be lying if i said that i dont miss the past. but so what if i do? it has passed, it is over.

i'm dissapointed. i fear. i'll overcome this fear.
i'm ill disciplined but i'll discipline myself.

am i being emo right here? whatever.