cunfang(:

Friday, October 31, 2008

4:17 PM

i want to sleep but i can't.
fever fever please go away. i still have 3 on 3 tmr de. please go away.

Thursday, October 30, 2008

8:12 PM

lecture was too boring so i started taking photos.

7:39 PM

today morning was fun. you know why? bcos jol, kiwu, kaina, HERLINA and i left the lecture halfway. the lecturer was like "thank you ar! this is an important exam topic. see you all around." we hack care him and left. LOL! it was quite embarassing but who cares? it's fun!

why?
i told her what i'm thinking and feeling but why must she tell someone else? nvm, it's okay. i forgive you. you are not the first one anyway. it is my fault. i should have learnt my lesson.

i need a break.

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

11:41 AM

it is break time now. here to blog for a while before i am off.

this morning tutorial was good except for the fact that i am late! i left home 45 mins earlier than normal but yet i'm late! buses are all fully packed! while i was rushing to class, i wish that the teacher will be late but she isn't. lol. fortunately my tutor didn't scold me. haha.

i'm having stomache now but i can't go shit cos nobody is here to help me take care of my laptop! sian sian sian.

okays. i'm off. byes.

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

4:34 PM

what a day...

very late for school thanks to the massive jam.
lecturer accuse me of talking on phone
an embarassing incident on the bus.
almost got knocked down by a car at the school entrance.
dropped my student card but someone returned it to me.
phone rang during class, forgot to switch on silent mode.

Incident on the bus goes like this...
I lost my balance in bus and i accidentally hit a girl's breasts. OMG!
she snatched my seat after that. my bag was like super heavy but yet she...
nvm! i forgive her! take it as my way of making it up to her. lol.

3.8 could never catch up with 3.9 and 3.95.
i am so tired, so stress, so lagging behind.

God, i just want to thank you for what happened at FMS class today.
You helped me through.
Praise God.

Monday, October 27, 2008

7:14 PM

my day at home...

my dad says he looks younger -.-

sis trying to hide. ugly.

stoning. aunty.

mum helping dad to dye hair.

i stayed at home the whole day to do dss. i spent a lot of time on it. i am slow.

my sis asked me to accompany her to the optometrist but i refused.

my dad asked me to go bugis with him but i refused.

my mum asked whether we want to go shopping but i refused.
i don't feel like going anywhere but to stay at home to finish my work.
have to go school tmr. i dont feel like going. sian sian sian.

i like this photo best.

though we act act de but it looks nice.

good photographer yea...

Sunday, October 26, 2008

10:49 PM

遺憾に思います

i stayed at home for the whole day. did only part of my dss.
i wanted to find a place to relax myself but where can i go? reality is reality.
i had a very long and nice talk with my mum ytd. she did not scold me or what i felt so lost and so afraid. what am i suppose to do. I wanted to talk to you about it but...

i'm sorry that i didn't turn up today.
i know how heart breaking it is.
it really is.
i tried.
i need time.
i don't know how long it will take. days, months or years?

Lord,
why am i so lost now?
why am i so confused now?
why am i so tired now?
is this what i deserve?
is this a punishment?
i don't know what am i doing.
i don't know what should i do.
please guide me.

what a song. better in time.
i'm gonna to be ok. time will heal. it'll all get better in time.

Saturday, October 25, 2008

11:32 PM

i have been in depression in the past few days. i dont feel like studying, playing or doing anything. life is so meaningless to me. i was thinking when will my life end? this is not the first time i am feeling like that.

okays. i told coach about it. family and friends used to be my main concern. but now, family is my main worry. i am not going to care about what others think.
i have confessed...
1) i'm a sinner.
2)Jesus is my saviour.
3)God sent Jesus to suffer for our sins.

Romans 10:9-10:
If you confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus and believe in your heart that God has raised Him from the dead, you will be saved.
For the heart one believes unto righteousness, and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation.
Amen.

24 October 2008 is the day.

i've told rose. she told agnes. i happened to tell yinghui and alicia. yes, i started with the fear of telling them but i've overcome it. thank Lord.

Having some obstacles now. Overcome it.

Friday, October 24, 2008

12:00 AM

i hate i hate i hate!!

Thursday, October 23, 2008

11:52 AM

i miss you girls- jol, yb, yb ):

i skipped school today just because i overslept. where's my discipline man? anyway, here is my plan for today. shall go amk central to shop for some celebration stuffs for coach bday and take this opportunity to rest at home as well. anyway, dont know whether joleen will get to see this or not but i shall post it here.

JOLEEN! JIAYOU FOR YOUR SINGING COMPT!(:

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

10:54 PM

hello people! i'm back! you guys have asking me to update! here i am with a new skin! =D

school
it is my second week of school but yet i'm not in the mood to study yet. i did some of my tutorial just for the sake of participation marks but i don't understand. school is so boring! 7 more weeks to go before holiday comes!

life
life is worse. i've a lot to complain about.

i'm so tired from the lack of sleep. haven been sleeping well. keeps on waking in the middle of the night. having nightmares at times. initially, i tot lavender oil might help me to sleep better but i dont think so.

for no good reason, my right foot and left toe are swollen! why!?

had freindly with simei ite. we "won" but i believe we enjoyed. i had a talk with np coach. what he said made me think a lot. passion vs winning.

went sch gym today. i dont know whether i am hallucinating or what. there are noises coming from the last shower room when i am bathing. i am so scare la but i am a brave girl! as if...

home united. i look stupid.

np team photo

shuxuan and i (:

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Monday, October 6, 2008

10:09 PM

please bless her.